The only bit of sentimentality I'll allow myself is from Ernest Hemingway who said something very true; "But man is not made for defeat. A man can be destroyed but not defeated."

Bear in mind he also said, "Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut." Never have truer words been spoken.

Wednesday 16 March 2011

Bad News




I have been sending emails and posting blogs containing pretty bad news for the last couple of years, but I never thought I’d have to send one this extreme.

Some of you know all of this already, so I apologise for the repetition.

On Wednesday we went to see my Neurologist for a tumour grading and were informed that I have a Glioblastoma Multiforme (GBM) in my spine. A quick Google check will show you that it is the worst and most aggressive type of tumour. There is no cure for it but I will undergo radiotherapy and chemotherapy next week for six weeks and take it from there. The average life expectancy is around 12 months.

GBM’s are primarily brain tumours but I am one of a handful of people who have it in my spine which makes it harder to treat as they can’t excise something that is so big in the spinal cord.
Given that I have lived with this tumour for so long it is assumed that it was a lower grade tumour that has since upgraded itself recently.  It is the first upgrade I have ever got but not one I really want.

I will be treated at the Royal Marsden Hospital in Sutton. We were really impressed with them and I had brought a lot of information with me about new treatments and my consultant was aware of all of them and talked me through the best course of action. There is alternative immunotherapy treatment available in Belgium that I am looking into and my family found out about a Swiss doctor, Stupp, who has dealt with thousands of glioblastomas.

My consultant says that the Stupp treatment has improved life expectancy and the Stupp Protocol is what I will be following where Radio and Chemo drugs are administered at the same time. So the next six weeks will determine how this pans out.

I have a huge amount of testing and MRI and CT scans to undergo before I start the treatment on the 25th so that is keeping me busy.

Some of you have been sending me information about weird and wonderful treatments as well as a bit of snake oil salesman information, but hey I have nothing to lose. So I will try the magical Ecuadorian crystals, salamander sweat rub and deranged Sangomas in due course.

I will see how the treatment goes and if it doesn’t affect me too much I will try and go back to work to get my mind off things but at the moment I am recovering from the surgery. Removing the stitches was fun, took over an hour and the nurse looked like she needed a holiday afterwards.

Otherwise we are keeping positive and trying to get our heads around this. Jay is really helping hugely and we are both pretty resilient people and will give it a good fight,

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